In Tallahassee, FL, spring means pollen. It seems to just happen out of no where. All of the sudden everything is yellow! Literally. Everything outside is covered in yellow pollen. It is absolutely awful. Then, at the same time, it is unbearingly beautiful outside. Everything is beautiful and blooming. You look out the window and want to go sit in the warm sun, but then you see the yellow wave blow by in the wind and think better of it. As soon as the yellow appeared, I felt it in my throat. I felt the scratch happen. I didn’t have time to be sick, starting a new job and all. So I turned to my oils. I was out of the allergy trio, Lavender & Peppermint & Lemon, on it’s way in my Essential Rewards order. So, what to do? I had Thieves! I put that on my throat at night or drank a Thieves tea. After 3 days, it was gone. I never got sick! So that really saved me! Read more about Essential Oils, here.
I worked my first week at the animal hospital successfully and was excited to have a day off with my hubs. When I got home on Thursday, the boat was ready and my poles were rigged up. I was so proud of him for going to the grocery store (following my list for the most part) and having dinner ready! We even had time for him to give me some casting pointers in the yard. AND the floors were mopped! I love when he does things without asking. We both work so hard and it is nice that we can both work together on keeping the home clean and nice.
We didn’t leave too early because it is still dark until 7ish and plus I love just laying in bed to snuggle with my Sophie! It is weird when Vivi isn’t there (she was with her Ooma and Oompa) because I still hear in my head! I wonder if I will always hear that, even years from now I think I will be hearing, “Mommy, Mommy, I wake,” in her little quiet sing song voice. I am alright with that. She can be the wildest child and I want to pull my hair out and then the minute she isn’t there, I miss her terribly.
Once at the river, I feel a peace. I love being at the Wacissa River. We have gone there our whole relationship and it seems to change with us. We used to go there and drink, but now we do so much more. It is the river I caught my first bass on kayak. It is also the river where I lost my friend in a diving tragedy. I always think about him and I feel a calm about him there. Maybe because the Wacissa has a natural peace. Maybe because I am reminded of how temporary this life is there more than other places. Maybe because the river shows God’s ability to make such shocking beauty.
That first stretch down the river as I ride in silence is one of my favorites. I forget how amazing it is until I am there. It was very foggy, so everything had a mist seeming to radiate from it. The fog seemed to add to glow. I was just sure I was going to catch a bass. It was perfect weather and there were very few people. Then we realized how bad the sand gnats were! Awful! I had also forgotten my sunglasses in the truck because it was foggy when we left the landing. I was having the worst luck! I even broke my first pole I ever owned in half with my frog. Travis got one right away, because he always does and he is awesome. Blah. I had the hardest time.
My so sweet husband, stopped fishing to hep me. He was so great with encouraging me and getting me back in a positive state of mind. He helped me rig up my other poles so that I could get the bait I was comfortable with and the fish were going after. It kills me to actually see them down on their sandy beds and not have them bite! He encouraged me to not give up. I kept casting and casting. Bass fishing is serious work! Finally, after much trial, I got one! I felt such a sense of relief! So did Travis, he could start fishing again! I will get better! I have the best guide ever.
I think fishing has really ruined me just going and relaxing on the water. Well, until I catch at least one. For a girl with zero coordination, who started fishing 3 years ago, catching a river bass is still a feat! It is still something I am proud of. I love fishing for forcing that persistence. I can’t give up. It is a great way to work on improving at something that is difficult, but having fun at the same time.
We went down to the Indian Mounds to let Wyatt off the boat and to explore a little bit. This is a serene part of the river. It feels untouched. Travis knew what I was about to see. He had made sure to make it there. It was a gorgeous. Breathtaking. The pictures do not do it justice. There was a blanket of white flowers all across the forest floor! I felt like I was in an enchanted book! We just walked around the mounds taking in the raw beauty of Florida.
We got back in time to pic up Vivi right after her nap. I love living that close to most of our favorite places. It is a 30 minute ride to escape to such rural beauty. We took a swim suit for Viv and set off for the new (year old) park in town with fun fountains you can play in. At first, she was very excited to put on her swimsuit! Then, as we stood at the edge of the water, she was unsure. So we just waited. Eventually, she ran in and that was the last we saw of her for about 10 minutes, which for a toddler, is a long time! She came back to check on us several times. She loved it! Then she decided I needed to get in. Ugh. I knew that was coming. She said, “Mommy, take your clothes off.” No. No, I will not be doing that today. This is the sober Vanessa! lol. (Joke folks.) I was able to appease her for a little while by running in and out of the fountains for a little while. Then she became inconsolable. It was time to go because her plea became, ” I take my panties off.” So we had to carry her away kicking and screaming after 10 minutes of pleading. Toddler times.
When we got home, we filled up the pool for more fun! I love that my baby loves the water, just like us! I can’t wait for all the future fun we will have in and on the water! I love these 2 year old moments of her experiencing things for the first time. I love being a mom and I love being a wife. I really never thought you could love people so much. But I do. I love them so much it hurts. I love that I am now free of medication and can feel my feelings! I have so much to be thankful for!