Resentments. We all have them. Sober or not. If you are an addict/alcoholic they can kill you. That is why you have to get them out. You can’t keep them inside. Obviously, I am not a shy person. I am sharing my resentments publicly. Well, not all of them. I also go to meetings with other addicts who understand what resentments can do. However, I think it is healthy for everyone to have a release. Journaling, privately, is a great way to get them out. I sometimes feel like they are eating me alive!
They can come from anywhere. They sneak up quickly; before you know it you are consumed by them. That happened to me yesterday over a Jerry Springer type family issue. I know I have to get to a meeting to talk about it. I have to pray to my God about it. I have to rely on my support system to make sure it doesn’t lead me to drink. I want to be a positive person. I don’t want my anger or resentment to rule me.
I think getting it out and putting all my cards on the table is also the best way to let it go. I can’t be in control. God has to be in control. I know I can’t win the situation. It has to be God. I have shown what I can do. I fail.
So, time to tackle my resentments head first. I need to be prepared though! I gather my resources that I use daily and double up. Sobriety is only easy because I work at it. It isn’t my strength, it is God’s strength.